Ali Jean

quite a change

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 11:42:54 GMT

so theres this boy I have known for years, but we have never been romantically involved until now. His name is Adam Brewer and I know what people are thinking.. but no.. he's changed so much and he is the sweetest ever, seriously, I have never been treated like this.. it's only been a week but i dont think I have ever been this happy. he's the guy that will just si there adn look at you for no reason but because he thinks your beautiful, and he lets me know it too. the way I feel with him takes all my doubts away about men. yeah I am still a little afraid of getting hurt but that's a chance you take with any relationship. I'm very happy I decided to take the risk, it was deffinetly worth it.

He was in florida visiting family for a few months and we got to talking on the internet, for four 1/2 hours per night. until he came home recently. and we havnt ben apart for more then a day since. Sure I will be going to school during the week, and he's going to start lobstering, but it's crazy how fast the weekend can come when your busy.. and I will be graduating int he fall and be back home, we can make this work, where going to make this work, it's too wonderful not to. ♥

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 12:20:25 GMT

Things always get worse before they get better. But atleast things are finally starting to look up. I'm sure it will go back to shitty soon but I'm enjoying my few days of being okay while they last. I'm over all of it, I'm over him, I can't deal with that shit right now. If you can't tell a girl how you feel thent hat's just rediculous and I told him that. I'm done witht all that. I don't like to be led on then treated like shit. I'm good for all of that. School is okay. Today and tomorrow we get to bring things in for the troops and we dont have to be in dress code if we do.

I hungout with caitlin and nathan the other night it was great to see them, and fun. We talked about old good times and just laughed and laughed. We didnt realize the people next to us where live on the radio haha. some country station was there and we where beign loud haha.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 00:59:49 GMT

Like all this shit isn't enough. Stuff's going on wiht my family, my sister duh, but she gettign even worse and soemthing bads going to happen. I dont care if it happens to her, just my neice.

Then today my really good friend from school up and quit without notice. I don't know what to do. I'm going to miss ehr so much, I cried when she gave me a hug goodbye.

I jut dont know what to do, my life is going down the shitter fast, each day I get more and more upset, bad things keep happening. I didn't even know this many bad things could happen to one person even in a lifetime.. but so much sht has just happened lately thats more then enough. this is rediculous. my head is about to explode. I have no room left in my head to think.

I give up

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 00:03:03 GMT

So I hope everyone is happy. I basically give up on just about everything. There's no point to anything anymore. To catch you up, I was talkign to my friend Jared and he said he'd talk to Josh, I didn't really see the point, Josh is and always has been very hard headed, people don't really influence him in his decisions so I knew it wouldn't do any good. But Jared did talk to him. Josh IM'd me once he would talk much though, and hasnt talked to me since, so I asked him if Jared had talked to him [not knowing that he had at that point] and he said no it must have just been a coincidenc. Yeah fucking bullshit. So basically he only talked to me cuzh Jared tlaked to him.. i don't know what jaered said to him. But I don't want to be pittied. I'm not going to go slit my wrist just because you wont fucking talk to me. I mean it was nice talking to him for a lil bit but he obviously didnt want to so thats pathetic. He thinks I'm pathetic obviously. I guess I am. Why should I still like him? I have never not been able to move on.. I have alwyas bounced bck, why cant I now? I want to, I don't want to care anymore about someone who doesnt care about me. He's probubally going to go to jail I guess. I was just not going to talk to him, then wish him goodluck the day before his court date, but i shouldnt even bother. I was going to write to him while he was in there too, but why bother? why be so nice to someone that doesnt even care that i tlak to them or not?

Speaking of, I have decide that nobody is my friend. None of you even talk to me, none of you attempt to see me when I'm home, nothing, it's pathetic. I feel stupid for ever calling you guys friends, ever. [with the acception of caitlin & lissie because they actually talk to me when they have time]. But seriously. I just think I'm not goign to talk to anyone so see ya.

School is recisulous and all of you are too. I may be pissed off at the world but all of you caused it so just shut the fuck up. I'm sick of al of this. I'm sick of it.

...

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 19:16:15 GMT

This is rediculous. You shouldn't be this upset over one person. I was always the girl to say, well if he doesn't care about why should I care about him? But, that's not working this time, I really wish it would. I'm sick od being upset, I'm sick of being sad, I'm sick of crying. I'm sick of having feelings for somebody who obviously doesn't give a shit about me. I'm sick of wondering. I'm just sick and tired of it all. I don't want to deal with this anymore.. but it won't go away. Just make it go away.. somebody make it go away. Make the memories go away. Make the feelings go away.

Today was my first client.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 02:06:24 GMT

Wow. I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. But I wasn't the calmest person either. I had two hours to complete this morning, then I signed my afadavid [saying that I'm able to work on "homosaypiens" (sp?)] as sherry would put it haha. Then not even two minutes later I had my first client. It took the Only other girl in our class able to work on clients two days before she got her first client. I just looked at them and I was all like.. you're kidding.. right? because they faked Shayna [the first in our class] like that so I thought it was a joke and they just sent the older instructor to give it to me so I wouldn't suspect. But no it was real. & of course I get the hardest haircut there is... not only that but it was really like 3 haircuts all together because she wanted a few different things. Plus, she had a very thick accent and it was hard to hear her, and she had EXTREMELY curly hair, and its wayyy harder to cut someone wiht curly hair's hair because it shrinks more when it's dry and all that good stuff. Well we had the instructor check it and I was all omg omg she gunna fin so many mistake and I was all like [ >.O ] ahahah. But guess what? she held everything up at the right point and BAM everything was even, boy was that a pretty siht.. she was like. what you talkin about? this cut is PERFECT she didn't have to cut even one strand of hair & she's like even the seniors I have to cut soemthing.. I was like *jaw drops* guess I'm pretty talented haha. jk. But the lady was very nice.. I even got a tip.

I took a makup test today on nail diseases and disorders and thats like the hardest chapter EVER because all the disorders and spelled pretty close. like onychorrexis, onychoxis, Onycophagy, Onychomadesis, Onychatrohy, and theres like 20 more like that... but I got a 90!!!! only got one wrong.. and it was a simple mistake. I was thinking you know the condition forming under the nail is fungi but they wanted to know what its caused by and thats bacteria so yeah but whatever.

As for everything else Im still pretty upset, but I figure that if he ever did want to be with me then he would have talked to me right? I don't know maybe he just like this but I figure if you don't talk to someone then you dont care much for them so.. whatever.. I'm just going to leave it be and if he wants soemthign he's going to have to say somehtign and step up because I have tried as much as I can wihtout going crazy.. I cant keep sayign how I feel and npt be tlaked to.. it's worth fighting for and I have as much as I can.. but he wont even talk to me so.. its kind of pointless.. I'm alwqys going to be here.. I mean I'm not going to wait for him persay, but Im not goign to date anyone else, I dotn want to, there is nobody else I would date.. But I'm not going to just sit and wait either.. I can't do it anymore. It's been a month.. and I just cant do it.. I could if he talked to me but he doesnt even do that.. I guess none of this makes much sense but I dotn know how else to explain it.. basically I'm here.. and if he wants me he can have me, he;s just going to have to be the one to push it forward now.. the balls in his court.

maybe no school tomorrow. we'll see, they don't like to close and havnt yet this winter but we will see..

the funny thing is.

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 02:35:32 GMT

Some people thin the only reason a person wants to be back with there ex is because there lonely, but that's not true. The only reason I'm lonely is because he's not here, it's him & only him that I feel lonely without. I havn't been whole since we broke up, it sounds funny but ever since that day I havn't been happy. And no matter how many time I had gotten my heart broken before him, it was never like this. I was always sad for a while then got over it, it never took this long and these feelings never lingered. Yes, for a year I pretended that I was fine, I didn't talk about it, I put it in the wayy back of my mind, but the truth is none of it ever went away. I think about the times when we where together, the fun we had, how he could always make me smile, even when I was sick. We would just hangout, and watch movies all the time, we didnt really have to do anything to have fun, because we where together. There arn't many movies I can watch now without thinkign of him ebcause we either watched them, where going to watch the, or talked about them.

And what's really funny is that people don't believe it. Yes, I broke up with him, I was ying to save myself that may never have happened, I broke my own heart but I've realized my mistake. I don't know if it's too late, he just won't tell me, he won't talk to me. I don't think anybody could know how I feel right now. It's complicated, but to love somebody and think about them all the time, and not talk to them, and know that they arnt thinking of you at all even though you always htink of them, and knowing they just dont care for you anymore, they just dont trust you anymore.. it's aweful. I wouldn;t even wish this upon my worst enemy.

I may be lonely, but thats not why I want to be with him, it's funny... I have been single alot, I never had any relationships last that long... But I love sumone.. and now that I do.. and everybody know it.. 6 guys have told me that they would like the chance to date me. 6 guys.. can you believe that? in the past 3-4 months 6 guys have told me that they like me.. they have for a while but they just never told me.. 6 guys.. thats strange.. But I don't liek any of them, I don't even talk to any of them, I just want one person. I just want the person that I have loved for a year an 1/2 back. That's all.. seems like a simple thing but it obviously isn't. I just want us to be us again. I just want him to trust me again, I want him to look at me that way again. This is so hard for me. 6 guys have told me they want to be with me.. I could have my pick of 6 guys, but I dont want any of the 6.. there my friends and I dotn want to hurt them but I have told them that I love somebody. I don't talk to them, I want to be with him not any of them. 6 guys and I want to be with soembody who doesnt even want to be with me. Well atleast thats how it seems. He may have said someday we can get back together but if thats true then why wont he talk to me? does he think it's funny to know that I cry every night? does he just want to hurt me the way I hurt him? Because I for one can say he's managed that and beyond. And if that's so I'm not mad at him for it, I deserve it. But I'm still a person with deep feeling and I don't think I should get the cold shoulder even if I do deserve it. It;s just.. he isn't that kind of guy. I know he isn't. Maybe some people would say he is, maybe he's that way to friends that have stabbed him in the back.. thats understandable.. but this is me we are talkign about. I just don't know why he;s doing this to me.. after all we've been throguh I just don't know why he;d do this to me. I mean once he loved me right? atleast he said so.. He's the only guy i really believed that he really did love me. He proved it to me over and over. And if he really did love me that intensly as I thought he did, then why is he beign like this? I know he needs time. But I would give anythign If he would just say one word to me.. just one.

This journal has become a way for me to just vent everything. nobody really reads this anyways except lissie. but if soemone is reading this.. just know this isnt meant for the whole world to see, I dont want that. I just dont know what else to do with myself and this is a great way for me to get stuff off my chest, it helps, I still ry but this helps. even though it's just the slightest bit, it helps.

Like it was.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 00:24:05 GMT

6 hours to go..

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 22:28:59 GMT

So I have 6 hours left. But I don't know when I will get them done. You see Thursday while leaving school I discovored that I had a flat tire. I drove it home seeing my house is only a mile away. But she's pretty much fucked. So Robin picked me up for school the next day. And then seeing that this weekend was a 3 day weekend my dad picked me up, brought me back to Newcastle and now I'm stuck here because of the snow. I'll drive back when I can but it won't be tonight. Bangors supposed to get 5 inches and it isnt supposed to stop til 2 am tomorrow so maybe there will be no school? but I doubt it they hardly ever have no school unless instructors cant get there. And seeing that tomorrow is Freshman orientation.. where the next class comes... I don't think there gunna call off school unless instructors cant make it, because we are sort on instructors already and ith this fucked up new grading system they need more instructors not less.. so I dont know.

Anyways this weekend totaly blew. Didn't hangout with anyone and beign back here and beeing close enough to see him but not sucks.. seeign that he still doesnt talk to me and im getting really aggravated.. not wiht him, with myself. I mean this is all my fault. Why should he want to be with me? I broke up with him, I hurt him, why should he ever trust me again? he shouldnt. But I want him to, he CAN trust me, I WONT do it again. But I for one know how hard it is to trust somone who has hurt you. But I just wish he would give me a chance. I mean he is the one who always said "everybody deserves a second chance" so why not? I atleast think that he should talk to me.. I hate not talkign to him. I know i sprung this on him and he doenst know what to do or think probubally, maybe he thinks that I will try and pressure him but im not going to I just want to talk to him. I got him something, it turned out wrong. They did it backwards, it isn;t right, I wont give it to him. why should I anyways. It was a nice thought but he probubally just thinks I'm crazy or soemthing. I dont even know what to think or feel anymore. But I'm upset, I'm heartbroke, I love hima nd I don't knwo what to do

20 hours remain.

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 01:28:08 GMT

Today the first one of our girls went out on the floor. That means they are able to work on clients, I only have 20 hours left, which will be about 5-6 days. I am second in my class, so that means I'll be second to graduate also if I keep up my good attendance. I have been working on up-do's like prom hairstyles, had some perm rollign hours & some haircut hours. I completed my manicure hours, shampoo hours, and cos hours. I'm pretty excited except the requirment have me bummed. I know that just about everyone completes them but still. See we have a certain amount of each thing we have to complete before we can graduate. And there big numbers sp it just seems like we cant do it, but once we get going hopefully I'll just knock them out quickly.

I curled my hair today for shcool, it was wicked cute, pics on myspace.

And about my last post, hearts still broken, no words have been spoken.. hey that rhymes.

I'm going back to Newcastle this weekend, don't really want to but it's a 3-day weekend so.. yeah. I want to see my baby daisy [neice, kayleigh] I miss her so much. She is so adorable she learned to say allison.. so if im not payign attention she goes auntie.. AUNTIE.... ALLISON!!!!!!!! haha. love her =]

ranting.. forgive me..

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 02:41:23 GMT

So I have realized that I made a huge mistake. I miss him, I love him, but he doesn't give a shit as to weather I where to live or die. Well maybe I wouldn't take it that far but that's how he's acting. So three weeks ago I let my true feeling out. I have been talking to his friend Ryan who I tell everything to so I told Ryan. Then a little while later I decided that Josh should know how I felt too, so I wrote him an e-mail, but he didn't get it until after Ryan had told him I wanted to talk to him and he IM'd me. He told me he doesnt hate me and blah blah, and he didn't get the hints so a few days later after we had hungout one day I told him how I felt and that I still liked him. He said that we would probubally get back together at soem point but just not right now.. then we hungout that night, and he hasnt talked to me since??? I wrote him a letter askign him to just tell me how he feels, if he doesnt want to be with me than just fuckin tell em so I dont have to sit here and wonder all the time. My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I mean we stayed up til 3:30 AM talking online.. and had started talkign at 11 pm.. thats 4 1/2 HOURS!!! all we talked about was us and the past an everything, and he has just as good memories as I do and I don't get why he wouldnt want that again, but if he doesnt, atleats tell me why you know? I want to be with him, I miss him, I miss beign with him, I was so happy with him, until the end of it, and I know I played it out to be horrible blah blah but really i just broke up with him so I wouldnt get my heart broken, but its broken 2 times since then and I just want him back. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I just wish he would talk to me. I don't know if it has to do with me being away at school, or the fact that he may be going to jail for a little while? or soemthign else? I just want to know, is that such a big thing to ask for? I think not.. If it is any of those two reasons there are simple solutions, I'd coem home on weekends, every weekend, I'm only have 9 months of school left anyways.. thats really not that long, or ig it had to do with the jail thing.. I would visit him, I'd write him, he could call me, it wouldnt matter as long as we where together. Alot of you would probubally say he's probubally not worth it, but he is to me. He was just so much different than anyone I have been with before, and yes maybe he broke a few silly promises, but they werent a big deal, I overreacted many times, but I'm not like that anymore. I just don't get it.. I just wish he would tell me how he feels, somehtign, anything.. I could go on for hours but I won't.. I'm just so upset about it I dont know what to do with myself.

on a lighter note.. since I last written i've started cosmetology school, it's going great, just got out of freshman class, and once i'm done with my hours, witch should be in about 9 days, I will be eligable to work on clients! scary but it should be fun. I live in Bangor, just ac ouple hours from home, no biggie.

My sisters still rediculous, dumb bitch anyways, wrecked two more cars, what else is new? she may go to jail, but she always gets away with eveyrhting, if she went to jail my life would just be that much better. It would take me years to write all the stuff she has done just in the past few months..

well I guess that's it for now. Later days.

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 23:46:05 GMT

so I left my job.. I loved that job but my manager was just aweful. life still sucks.. always does.. people talkign shoit for no reason.. sister being gay... nothing to do.. I'm pissed at life.

I got my nose peirced and I'm getting a tattoo wednesday so thats all good.

peace out bitches.

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 15:24:48 GMT

so I've been working for 3 weeks now. it's fun and one girl that works there ashley shes awesome and we became instant friends. today i have to work at the bath store though. too many people called out sick. saturday my gramas comming home so that will be awesome. people have been harrassing me lately need they remain nameless there a bunch of phychotic punks anyways. I havn't done a thing to them so whatever. If they do it again though the police already have the first report soo.. watch out assholes. leave me the fuck alone!!!!!!. I changed my cell #.. not because of them they didnt know it although they coukld easily found out. because one of my ex's keeps calling me and hes nasty so i tell him not to talk to me and he still does. and then another x's friend called and he was sayign shit in the backgroun.. hey if a relationship isnt working out then you have to end it it's not liek i did anythign horrible to him it's really the other way around. so he should shut the fuck up, cowboy the fuck up and say it to my face. and so should the "road rager's" we'll call them. I aint no pussy if I have something to say I'll fuckin say it to ya when I see you. I just havnt seen them around so next time I so theyre all going to have an ear full and he may have a big red mark on his face cuzh hes got one big PUNCH comming to him.

for my birthdya my da's renting me a cabin on old orchard beach for a night so we can all party and go clubbing. make sure u will have those days off then tell me if you can go. <3

job

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:42:20 GMT

I got a job at the new dunkin donuts and I start tomorrow. Im nervous but I always am around new people but it will be good I think

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 16:25:54 GMT

my sister is finally getting a job for once in her life & it's stocking shelves at Hannaford at night from 10 - 7 am. so I will have kayleigh from 7pm-7am and thats not bad because she sleeps that whole time. And the state will pay me 100 bucks a week to watch her while she's sleeping. sounds like a good deal to me.. but she toss's and turns so I will be tired alot cuhz it wakes u up but my dad will have her in the day so i will be able to nap and stuff.

no more sidekick ='(

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 20:52:34 GMT

so we took it back today they made us pay 35 dollar restocking fee's for each phone so we left 105$ poorer I'm pissed cuhz thats bullshit we got nothing to show for it except 3 cell phones we had for less then 24 hours and never used. good thing we still hadnt cancelled with us cellular. so my phone # is still the same that it always was.

i'm so fuckin pissed

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 01:17:55 GMT

I went to the mall today to get pants from American Eagle with my dad cuhz he wanted to get out and do something. well I got my pants, a shirt from abercrombie and two shirts form weather vane one was 3 bucks and one was 9 there having this hug liquidation sale, everything is on sale, everyhting, there not closing there just getting EVERYTHING new. but thta's besides the point.

we went by t-mobile and got new phones. my dad got a cute samsung, and my mom got a nice nokia, but I got a T-Mobile sidekick two. I was so fucking exceited, there so fucking sweet. But then I got home. my parents both have perfect reception and theres where free with the plan, but mine was 260$. mine doesn't get any reception at ALL it just says searching, that made me so upset. so we called customer sevice and they said the sidekicks dont work in this area. I almost cried litteally tears came to my eyes. I lvoe that fuckin phone. they also said the razer did come in so I can get thta and its sweet too but not like the sidekick. then they also said that we r in a roaming area and our phones don say that so we are charged every damn time we use them for roaming. so we have to go back and take them ALL back. thats so fucking stupid. expecially cecause we had to sit at the little booth for over 2 hours while they set them up in the first place. now we get nothing when we paid all this money. and i really wanted that phoen.. like my dream phone. I had an e-mail adress with it and was playing on aim and everything on the way home then we hot wiscasset and no reception.. so pissed!!!! and before we ever bought them we asked the girl to check the charts and to see if they came in our area and it said yes perfect reception.. and my parents do but mine.. nothing. she should have know that I mean she should have checked each phone.. im so fuckign pissed. liek sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed. everythign in life always goes wrong for me.. expecially when its something i really want. like this. I get it and am so happy then something liek this happens. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

wow how they grow

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 12:35:52 GMT

my beautiful neice Kayleigh-Ann Marie is one year old today
when she was born she was only
6 lbs 1.4 oz and 19 1/2 inches long

she is still very small but so adorable <3
I love this kid so much!!!

I look like shit in the pic but hey
it's 8 o'clock on christmas day

me in my dress.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 16:40:38 GMT

I took new better pictures
of me in my dress
there really good accually so
I deleted the entry before.
here they are

got my dress.

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 00:41:38 GMT

it's so fuckign pretty lissie, caitlin, and Josh where tellign me how pretty i was and the sales lady said that shes seen girls try it and so did he and only i could pull it off hehe. so I hope sumone doesnt have it! I got mine at david's bridal almost 200$ but worth it.

I'll post a pic if I can find one.

that's from deb's
it's by masquerade
but mine looks better for sum reason
less bunhcy and poofy
and mine's ice blue.
I'll take a pic sumtime

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 20:39:41 GMT

I know I have done this before but it's comming down to the wire now the only sizes they have left in the two dresses that I adore are my size amazingly. I don't know if I really want to go to prom or not. last year i went and it sucked then again my date didnt talk to me and I didnt know anyone but brianna and josh. I was going to go to prom with my boyfriend, he said he wanted to go with me I htink we both wanted a real prom experience, but we broke up and all for good reason. so now I dont know if I want to go without sumone I love. even though this time there would be alot of old friend to share it with and it would still be a great time.there are a few people there that don't like me at all for no good reason and I don't know if I'm up for getting those nasty looks all night long when ur supposed to be having fun. I would like advice if Ya'll think I should go or not I know it's my decision but I would like to hear from you to help me decide because right now I'm not leanign one way or the other and if I do decide to go I ogtta order the dress now. another thing I need t have help with is the thing I already asked. the dress. I have two I really like and i can't decide one I changed the color and I love the first one and the second one is just so perfectly me. I know people voted for the first one before but I'd like more oppinions and i have different shoe choices.

with

or
the black ones

.. or..

this dress with shoes like she's wearing.

also I was wondering even though alot of you have made your decidion on the dresses you are gettign for prom I was wondering if one day caitlin, lissie, and anyone else who would want to go with me would go to portland dress hunting just so I could see if there was something better then the ones I found online. thanks for ur time love you all.

so sad

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 13:16:12 GMT

She sat him across from him,
She looked him in the eye.
"How much do you love me?"
He said: "For you, I would die."
She looked down at her hands,
"Would you ever let me go?"
His face turned very serious,
And he responded with a "no."
"What is this about?" He asked,
The girl only shook her head,
"Nothing, I was just curious,"
But he doubted in what she said.
Three weeks after this though,
She sat him down again,
And softly she whispered,
"Do you think there is a heaven?"
He stared at her intently,
Before opening his mouth to reply,
"Yes, I believe there is..."
He pointed to the sky.
The girl seemed mostly satisfied,
But her eyes held a sad light,
She held his hand and kissed it,
And he knew something wasn't right.
"Baby tell me now please,"
What are you hiding from me?"
She avoided looking at him,
This wasn't going to be easy.....
Five days later she found herself,
Cradled in a hospital bed,
Her boyfriend right next her,
Gently kissing her forehead.
"You're gonna be okay,"
He smiled down at her.
Still in a little shock,
That she had liver cancer.
She had told him she was sick,
And chances were very slim,
But during the week he was tested,
And told her cure was within him.
So when he had kissed his girl,
He had been kissing her goodbye,
How much did he love her?
...For her he would die....
The girl woke up later that day,
After a complicated surgery.
She had gone expecting to die,
Confused she said: What happened to me?
The surgeon looked at her,
"Your man also went under the knife,
He gave you his good liver,
In order to save your life."
So he hadn't let her go,
But instead gone in her place,
Trusting that one day in heaven,
He would again look her in the face

good lord

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 00:44:55 GMT

I can't even believe it.
this is deffinetly a record.

so we all know kendra went in the ditch new years well two weeks later she backed into a bmw at a bank. while we were gon she wrecked it again and it was impounded.. now its in yet another ditch tonight. my poor neice was with her this time. 2/4 times she has been. who wrecks there car 4 times in less then a month? after totalling about 20 other vehicles. shes stupid.

it may be horrible to say but one day shes going to die in an accident and I won't care a bit.. it's her own fault. she's crazy. as long as my neice is ok. I'm okay but if she ever gets seriously injured I'll kill Kendra myself!

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 20:40:04 GMT

well I forgot to write it I guess btu I went to the movies and stuff with Caitlin,Mindy,Lissie,Josh, and Kailyn and had a blast then I went to west virginia and just got back.. i was sick the whole time throwing up n such but i was still a good time.

changing this around

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 03:40:09 GMT